Elesha is a writer too

This week I'm featuring a poem from my long, lost cousin Elesha Kelian George (Faustin). I came across her poem/note when I was browsing through Facebook... yes, I'm a Facebook junkie... a minimum of three to four hours a day too.

Now to get back to my cousin, I didn't even know she writes at all, my family has a way of keeping their talents locked up in a closet... especially my sister Ezra George, who I must admit is even more talented than i am, she just needs to take some time to construct her thoughts.

Well to get back to my cousin, here is her poem/note:

You're Just Not Good Enough

Who am I today a vagrant gone astray
Maybe an angel on the good days
Am I black or am I white today?
A thousand back lashes screaming you're Just Not Good Enough either way!

Is my nose too wide, my hair too tough
My feet's too big and hands too rough
Is it that I'm Just Not Good Enough??

Being loved, feels like I'm hated
On those dark days not even affiliated
The ones who's suppose 2 care
Can't even be there...
Won't play their part
Unaffected by the fact that they played your heart...Just Not Good Enough to be a part of their selfish pipe dreams
That they hold so close to their heart
Pushing you farther apart with the notion that you're Just Not Good Enough!

To be in their life
To be their dreams
Not Even Good Enough to be in their schemes!??
Wonder girl or I wonder girl??
That this life did a number on you
Tried to make a number out of you
One more addition to the statistics of being Just Not Good Enough...

With life being a choice and death being a decision,
Like Wizzy said I guess I gotta make a decision!
To live like the angel that I envisioned
Or to be part of your trapped vision
Its time to rid myself of u, circumcision
Refused to be tied to the lies that I'm Just Not Good Enough!

This day I'll Be More Than Enough
My unattainable dreams as you so refer them will not be handcuffed
Your thoughts or image of me and who you think I should or shouldn't be
That decision was never up to you
And now I know better!

I'm sitting here having a break through
You'd see me grinning and can't figure out why, after you've tried to
Erase the crises of the corner of my smile, I still smile!!
My chalk white teeth blinding
Like a thousand suns, the ones you tried to burn!!

(Ahahahahahahaha) x2

I start laughing hysterically at the thought that you thought you could wipe away my joy! Peace of mind and serenity!!
You're looking at me wide eyes, going crazy!!
Don't you know that you can't burn the sun!??

The sun will shrivel you to nothing
Like the nothing you made me feel
All these years and I used all those tears to OUSTED your fire!
And heat up my burning desire to live
And live FREE of you and what you made me out to be!
A liar! A thief! A killer and drug dealer
I was bitter as HELL just where you wanted me too be!
But I overthrew Hell's fury over your ills of me!
The pain melted away!
Because hell's fire is HOT!!!
And I felt the heat all the life you wanted for me!

But I'm to blessed to stay in this mess
Heaven sent I am, the redeemer of your past and the psychic of your future
I was not meant to be at the bottom of the food chain
I am beast with brains..a MONSTER!
I am to be feared loved and respected
Not something you can stand on but someone you can stand along with
Through the hours of the day and horrors of the night
I am like a Phoenix!
I burn then I RISE!

Written by: Yours Truly
Elesha Kelian George a.k.a Elapop

Copyright ***

Click here for more of her notes/poems

Mimi, my cousin

I hardly ever talk about my family on my blog... I don't know why either, guess I never really had a reason too or it just kind of slipped by mind.

But either way I am proud to present my cousin to the world, lol, well at least to my friends who follow my blog. I am sure that the "world" know about her more than I could promote her, seeing that she is doing her "thing" in Canada. She recently launched into singing and sent me this gem of a song "Love's Intersection" where she is featured in a song with Blackheart. He has done songs with J. Cole and Drake, household names for those who follow R&B and Rap Music.

So check out the song

and just in case you enjoyed this one, like I think you will here is a bonus track, just because I appreciate my followers and i'm proud of my cousin too.

congrats MIMI and continue making us proud...

Hot or Cold Water???

Well we've been called the land of the largest variety of greenery, or shades of green, the land of beautiful women (without a doubt) but we are also the land of many waters. The land of many waters plus towering peaks and deep valleys equals the land of many waterfalls. I have been to so many but there are still a lot on my list that I need to visit while i'm still physically capable.

Just this weekend (sunday) I visited the Trafalgar falls with the friends. I have been there a number of times over the years and I didnt really want to go this time around but this was the easiest hike we could have done with the limited daylight we had (we left home around 3 in the afternoon). Off course, the deal was sweetened when they mentioned they wanted to go to Screw's Natural Hot Water Pools at Wotten Waven. I was just there about a week and a half ago but I can never resist a trip to Wotten Waven when hot water is involved.

This time around we were greeted by a wonderful rainbow at the mother falls. There are three falls (mother, father and obviously the baby). We climbed to the base and had a nice half an hour swim. Anything more than that would be pure torture since the water is as cold or even colder than ice. I am still shivering while typing up this post, lol. But after a little torture one must always pleasure oneself. No, no, no, i wasnt talking about masturbation, well at least not this time, lol. I'm still talking about the hot water bath at Screw's. We paid for an hour's bath (just a small fee of EC$10/local) but stayed almost two hours (Screw's never pays any attention). I wanted to spend the rest of the night but felt that I was slowly been cooked.

For the first time at Screw's I actually went into the cool pool, I was convinced, well actually forced against my will, but it was really good but they should rename it the cold pool because after an hour or so in the hot pools even lukewarm water feels cold to the skin. A visit at Screw's is never complete without a complimentary platter of fruits (pineapple, banana, watermelon and sugarcane or as my friend say sugar sugar.

This ten dollar day at Screw's is really worth much more but I hope he doesn't change the price as I make it a healthy part of my lifestyle to soak in the sulphur waters.

Thanks be to JAH for this Dominican blessing, truly the Nature Island. The Island after God's own heart. Apres Bondie C'est La Ter...

Nesta

Razzard or Everlasts?

What I remember most about my childhood was going to the river, riding my bike, eating mangoes and off course playing cricket and football in the streets. Most of these took place during the summer when we were free to do as we place and every summer I get the feeling to just stop work for a few days and get back to my old routine.

Football has always been my favourite sport/activity although I don't play it as much these days. As a young boy we didnt have football boots, unless you call the black and yellow razzards as boots, but they looked more like constructions shoes than anything else. So we were reduced to playing with our draggers or ni pied (barefoot) with our everlasts. We referred to the souls of our feet as Everlasts since they last until death.

Saturday took me back, a bit of nostalgia, to those childhood days. I was playing football with my cousins, well not ni pied, but with slippers (draggers) on my feet. They had to be thrown away after the match though, lol. We played two rounds, well actually I was overmatched in both rounds but I managed to outscore my oppenents (a nine year old and seven year old) in the first match, I was tired by the second one (different and older opponents this time).

Many thanks to my cousin Nester Phillip for the pics...

Nesta